I reflect back to when I was 19 years old and I made the decision to go to treatment. I told my mom I needed a couple of weeks. Whether it was something deeper inside me saying I need to let go of people, or the fear of I'm changing — who am I going to be when I get out — I have no idea what the truth is behind that. Probably a combination of all of it. I'm getting emotional just saying it. Which tells me I'm talking about the right thing. Because that is very similar to righ

I walked through every room in my house with one word. Thank you. Every room. The bathrooms. The laundry. Every single room in this place. Just walking through with the sage, saying thank you for everything you've done for me. That's how this week started. Not with a vision or a ceremony. Just gratitude and smoke and every room in a house I'm leaving.

The candle burned out this week. I knew it was coming. I had been watching it every morning for thirteen days — one candle left from the last ceremony, burning down a little more each time I sat down to meditate. Every morning I would look at it and wonder: is today the day? And every morning it was still lit. Then one morning I opened my eyes and it was out.

Halfway home from something beautiful and dark, something came out of my mouth that I hadn't planned to say. I knew I needed to have a conversation with her. But about halfway home, something else came out. Something I hadn't planned.

Is it possible to heal the numbness of the ego without losing yourself? In this reflection, I pull back the curtain on the "Internal Movie" we all play and introduce the LAF Method—Listen, Allow, Follow. Discover how to stop saving your internal parts and start allowing them to lead you toward true fulfillment and freedom.

Everything is a little blah right now. I am in a state of non-doing, living numbly while my frustration is building. But today is another day: focus and understanding with heart connection. This morning is about being productive, intentional, and organized. My podcast and the writing of my book need to be front and center. I see my task, and I must follow it. Listening does not just mean in the ears. Listen to your heart. Listen to your inner guide. Listen to your visions. Al